Monday, September 19, 2005

Scared....

Ok, for the last several years I've worked in the scrapbook industry. I've worked with beginner scrappers - trying to help them get started scrapbooking, I've taught classes, sold supplies, designed products, I've reassured scrapbookers who've lacked confidence to get started, I've bought enough supplies to open a small store, attended tradeshows, read way too many scrapbook magazines and idea books, and enjoyed various scrapbook projects myself.

So why does scrapbooking scare me now?

It's like now that I have hundreds of pictures of Gabe on my computer I feel completly incompetent in my scrapping abilities. I feel like if I don't do his pictures justice I'll be a failure. I worry that I won't document all of the "important" moments just right. I stress that the pages have to look perfect - because Gabe's perfect and I want to portray his perfection in my creations. I look at idea books and worry that I will never have enough time or creative energy to create the types of projects I want to create. So what do I do as I sit in my new scrapbook studio? (see the pictures of the new space in the post above) I type on our blog, stare at pictures, and worry that at this rate poor Gabe won't even have a book documenting his first month by the time he leaves home.....

(****Update - I scrapbooked this afternoon!!! I actually finished one layout I've had sitting around forever, and started and finished another one. I tried posting them here - but it wouldn't work (the size was weird) - but you can see them here: http://www.twopeasinabucket.com/userprofile.asp?user_id=2843****)

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I know we talked about this while you were here, but I think the only way you are going to get over the fear is to just jump in and get started. The pages don't have to be "perfect" by any outside standards. They will be perfect because of the love that will go into them. Try one today...and another tomorrow and you'll be on your way. You can do it! You are a talented scrapbooker.

Love, Mom

april said...

I agree with your mom----you just need to get in there and work on some pages! You have talent oozing out of your fingers, Joanna, and all that precious little boy will have to do is look at his pages and he will be reminded of the love you show him each and every day!!