Friday, September 23, 2005

Joy

Yesterday I was driving into town with Gabe to do some grocery shopping. I was singing along to the music in the car and felt absolutely happy. It dawned on me that I hadn't felt this happy in a long time - I can't even remember how long it's been. I grinned from ear to ear and realized that I wasn't just happy - I was bursting with joy.

Definition of JOY: Intense and especially ecstatic or exultant happiness.

The rest of the day I just floated around full of smiles, and feeling like I was on cloud 9.

There are other times in my life I know I've been happy - the day we found out we were expecting Gabe, the day I got married, the day Gabe was born, when I graduated from college, and other times like Christmas, and other great times with family. But yesterday it was different. It wasn't an event, it wasn't something big that happened, but it was just being happy with where I am in life, what I'm doing, and who I am. And today I woke up with the same feelings. I am exactly where I want to be, and the person I want to be. Sure - I have a lot of shortcomings, and a lot of room for improvement. But I'm on my way, and I'm content with how it's going. It's been a long time since I've felt that way, and it feels good!

2 comments:

april said...

the days like that are the best, huh? havent had one in a while, so i'll live vicariously through yours, ok? ;)

Anonymous said...

Oh sweetie! We are SO happy for you. For all three of you. You and Cory and Gabe are a beautiful family...and that joy you are describing is what I have felt most of my life. You children and your families mean the world to Dad and I. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and these darling pictures of Gabe. We love you!

Love, Mom and Dad